First of all, I refuse to be a statistic and I am not saying weight loss surgery failed me. I am saying that weight loss surgery helped me reset my metabolism and relationship with food. I am far from perfect and about a year out from reaching my goal in a healthy manner. But I WILL reach my goal, even if it takes longer than I hoped.I saw this quote and it resonated with me: "Little by little becomes a lot."
When I started my journey in April 2016, I had the right mindset, I was dedicated, started working out (even though I threw up during my first strength class) and really focused on mindful eating and healthy choices 90% of the time.
I decided to revisit my blog and I miss that woman! Her passion for herself and her journey is inspiring and I'm ready to find her again.
You may be asking, how the hell are you going to do that during a pandemic. Well, at first I wasn't going to share my new chapter with people, but decided FUCK IT. I have never hid my weight loss decision and journey, why start now. That would mean I am ashamed and I'm not.
COMP at GBMC has started a medical weight loss program. Just like when I started thinking about having the surgery, I decided it can't hurt to listen to the information and then make a decision. I joined the group zoom and then did a 1:1 with Dr. Dovec. I decided to give the meds a try to help me get some control. I have been feeling really out of control with everything, as many of us are right now. My depression kicked in and I was spiraling. So I committed to doing this for 3 months.I allowed many things to be excuses for getting off track. I ended up having back surgery in October and yes, the pain did prevent me from being able to be active, but that snowballed into not changing my eating habits to match my lack of activity. Not that I ate horrible most of the time, but I ate more than I should have because of lack of activity.
I have never made excuses for any regain that I have had. I allowed my old mind set to creep in. Now that some of the restrictions are lifted, I have been walking more with the pup. It is slow because I am still recovering from COVID-19, and my lungs are still weak, but any movement is better than no movement. I can't wait for gyms to re-open because even before surgery, that is how I was really able to increase my metabolism and build muscle. The muscle mass is crucial to burning fat.
I just signed up for a virtual 10K and I am hoping the Father's Day 5K is still on!
You may be wondering about the meds. Part of journaling is for me track how the meds are interacting with my body. I am taking Phentermine. I'll be on the meds for 3 months. Starting with a very low dose and only increasing if needed.
Day 1
- I was a little jittery in the morning.
- Definitely had more energy.
- My appetite was suppressed and I didn't feel hunger.
- Only ate 3 meals, no snacks.
- Walked 3 miles with the pup.
- No jitters.
- Lots of energy.
- My appetite was suppressed, but felt hunger.
- I had 3 meals and 1 snack.
- Used my portable bike pedals for 15 mins.
Day 3
- No jitters.
- Lots of energy.
- My appetite was suppressed and didn't feel hunger
- I had 3 meals and 1 snack.
- Walked around the property with the pup.
- Participated in the group support meeting
- No jitters.
- Lots of energy.
- So far my appetite is still suppressed.
- I have not done any physical activity yet.
I'm done 4 lbs which is great, but the best part is I feel a sense of control and that has definitely helped my mental health.
Oh.......and I am starting NewTri Health (online nutrition program) because it seems I will most likely need a revision from Gastric Sleeve to Gastric Bypass due to severe GERD. Not what I wanted to have happen, but I want to not feel pain when I eat or drink.
I'm looking forward to seeing where the next 3 months take me.
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